Searching

Uneditied thoughts...
Why am i searching and looking in all the wrong places when what I really want and need is only found in the one place I dont want to look?
Why do i shy away from the one thing I know will help, and when the realisation hits then still it doesnt matter.
What I need is a life altering moment, a time when I knwo that this is the way.
Maybe I had it once and ive forgotten all about it. Maybe it was a time when I knew what I wanted and now I am lost in my own stubbornness or indecision.
For whatever reason sometimes things are fine and then something hits and its like all I ever wanted is no longer availiable to me, or all I thought I knew I never new at all...
this wontt make sense to many people it barely makes sense to me,
but i needed to write and to share the thoughts that go round and round in my head!

As The Tears Fall

Tears fall, and so often heaven seems so far away,

All we want is a cuddle and someone to share the pain,

Heaven is beauty, no pain and suffering they say,

Whilst here on earth the tears fall like droplets of rain.

Crying lets the pain ease but does not let go,

The anger, hurt and deeds won't let memories fade

This doesn't in any way relate to heaven's glow

Hurtfulness doesn't compare to how heavens made

So deep down inside when tears are flowing
Don't let heaven seem bleak, for God is love.

The tears will dry and over time you will grow

And a branch of new life may be reflected as a dove.

The Dash

Life -

plain and simple -

Life -

Great and small, long and short,
the dash is everything to everyone.

What did you do? What have you achieved?
What have you enjoyed the most?

Life or something like it is what we have before our eyes
and the best way to be is not to expect anything
or presume your destiny
because its all different.

I encourage you to explore

Find the answer to the question-

What is Your Story?

Thoughts from Heathrow

Politics, the country nerved by the lies
London, where the decisions for daily living made
Impact not on the lives of the decision makers
Is it just? Is it fair? Can the wrong doer be made better?
Can they that sit in the seats of liars be saved or
Worse do they profess a faith in a God that is not shown in their decisions?
Are we a Christian country?

Who is this?
What right have I to say that government sucks?
Except for being a citizen of the country they run I
have nothing to offer, no words, no party, no acts, no referendums,

no voice

A Voice for the voiceless, a hope for the needy?
Is our country so disjointed from its maker it needs a hospital visit?
Break it - remake it -
cast it and protect it - give it time and care and love and remember
the mistakes of the past. Maybe Life is more than this
Maybe it is not about those 'out there'
and our 'safe country.'
A haven for too long, a life for too much time wasted because of distractions

Time to make a stand
to be productive about God's brand
of righteous justice.

Too long we stood still looking at the others
pointing out the faults, a stick in your eye
but we dont see the tree in our own.
injustice and justice
faith and pride
love and apathy
speaking is useless
action prevails
life is a picture, a painting, a sound.
The Trumpet sounds.
The Groom returns
Will the Bride be waiting?

Busyness

So many people all rushing everywhere
So many people wanting to be seen,
but for what do they care
How do we show them 'You are seen?'
Distractions cloud the visual sphere

Thoughts are every food thing
thirsty Work resounds in the heads of those here
to love family to cherish, to finish to bring,
a list of to dos to the table when what we need
is SPACE
TIME
QUIET
a time to be
a space to think
the quiet of myself

But maybe just maybe this fear is what drives
is holds us captive, it makes us arrive
at a time when we need to confess
but instead immerse ourselves in distraction
and in this we have the one who has compassion.

'Do not let your hearts be troubled'

Speak Truth

We must speak words true
so that they honour you,
Our hearts must be free
to be able to know and see
the face of the King who came
to forgive, to heal the lame,
to bless the poor and show
love, to those who would listen, 'Go'
See the Risen King
Meet him where you are
We must be true to our calling
because God knows and cares
For each one who seeks,
Our hearts made true
so we can be like you.